Moments with Mom

Here I am. Up again. This sleep thing is really on my nerves. I think I need sleep, but I lay down and can't seem to keep my eyes closed. I toss and turn for hours, my legs get restless, and my mind seems to think about all of the things I should have done that day, but didn't. I think I work hard during the day. For example, I had church at 9:00, lunch appointment at 1:00, packing for Mason & Christian, laundry, church again from 4:30-7:15. You'd think that should be enough. But.....here I am. I'm tired, admittatedly, but so much to think about. I wonder did I pack everything. Will Mallory be lonely? Will Mason miss me? Will he want to play with Mallory and she won't be there? Will he be mad at me? Did I get the nursery handled today or did something happen? Did the Praise Team sound good today? Did I get my parts right during practice tonight? Should I layout something for dinner tomorrow night, or get something quick? UGH!!!!!! Mindless stuff, but yet, still going through my mind. I prayed hard today about our decisions. I asked two very faithful people to pray with me today. I felt such a peace when I left church this morning. I still feel that peace, but I hope the week goes as planned.

God, please bless my sweet children. They are the true life in me. I love every fiber that you gave them, and more. I pray that our decisions are in Your will and that we continue on that path. I pray for Mason as he takes a new and exciting journey this week. May it be filled with wonder and learning for his big mind. I pray for Mallory and her kind heart. I know she is already missing her brother, but hopefully, Mommy can help fill the void. I pray for me, as I struggle this week with the distance between my family. I pray for Christian and his patience. May he have just a small portion this week to be strong and understanding with Mason. I pray for my mother (God help her!) as she cares for my boys. I know she'll take good care of them. I cry tears of joy tonight as I write this prayer. Please cover every person in my family with Your love and wisdom. Help us all to be servants of You. Amen.

I've prayed and turned it over to God. Now hopefully, I can sleep. Good night my precious angels.